Just keep swimming...

How is it that one day you feel like your flying, like everything is going exactly as you planned and then the next day you feel as though your a million miles away from what and where you want to be in your life? Is it mood swings? Being too emotional? Depression? Tell me what it is...

Truth is nothing is just black or white. There are many gray zones. And no one gets to do exactly what they want the first time around. So why do I get down on myself when I haven't achieved what I thought I would right out of college?

I realize that we often forget where we want to go because the path isn't clear, but I have to believe that eventually I will be able to be where I know I belong. It just might take me a little longer than originally planned. In the end, I just have to concentrate. Concentrate on myself, concentrate on my goals. And, one day I will get there. In the meantime, like Dory, I need to "just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming swimming swimming."

Booked

Its booked. Their booked. I'm booked. And its the greatest feeling in the world. I haven't felt this excited or alive since I lived in Spain. I haven't travelled this much since that wonderful year abroad. And though its costs a pretty penny it is well worth it.

I am truly a wanderer and am not fully happy if I can't see my next trip, big or small, in the near future. Traveling or planning my next adventure is the only time I feel at peace and true to myself. Tonight, after speaking with my ladies, I have a hint of that peace that I have been seeking for what seems like years. And its all because we booked our hotel.

San Diego in August with my lovely ladies of Spain will no doubt be the highlight of my summer, followed by my first of many trips to Seattle to see my big brother, his girlfriend and my auntie. Possibly back to Seattle for Christmas and then Las Vegas for New Years. What more could I ask for of this year?